Thursday, March 28, 2013

Mama I got it!

I'll be damned
What did doctor ..say?
You got 3 good years..
Your wrong doctor...!
I need you mama..
Well you can't come here.
You just can't bring it here...
Where will I go?
don't know ...but not here!
I cried for someone to hold me..
I called my sponsor Craig
I need a place to live?
He said you can sleep in front room
I did ok
I still hurt
didn't know what to do.
Depended on the giving nature of strangers.
Learned what I needed to know
Wish I could speak to mama..
But I need to move on..why?
Because mama I got! HIV

This was my experience!
This happens a good bit, but know that you will be ok just like me..30 yrs HIV names TG  Green
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Wednesday, March 27, 2013

The Guy I Named Bryan

It was a day I went to see my therapist. I went in to the receptionist signed in an sat in waiting room.
All of a sudden this cute guy sits next to me with a big grin with beautiful blue eyes that twinkled. Even though he did look like he had had a rough day I felt he was hot as a firecracker! He gave me this big grin and winked at me and asked me what my name was baby. I just so happened to be horny, thought hmmm he would be fun to play with, so I told him my name was Tom . I asked him his name? He said Bryan. I thought I couldn't wait to get hold of he knew I wanted it. So we met after our appointments...Lord I acted like a dog in heat...we hooked up.. this was the beginning.. Bryan  was a good lay and fun to play with an we both had HIV plus he had HEPC. Bryan I found out was homeless, an addict, had lived on the street since he was 15 yrs. old. He grew up in a place called SAND MTN Alabama were they still have snake healers. Bryan was very high energy hyperactive & paranoid. But he had a good excuse for being that way. When growing up I found out that his mom would beat him and lock him in a room and refuse to give him food! So he suffered from PTSD from the abuse & wondering what had he done? His mother later would tell me she didn't know why she abused him and just shrugged her shoulders...Bryan had his good side and bad. I fell for him bad. You meet someone an was wild about them but knew down deep it wouldn't work?? Well that's what it was with us. We really cared for each other. I helped Bryan get his SSI started and food stamps and get a good men's shelter. Bryan was recovering from 2 weeks in hospital from PCP. His immune system was almost not there, I taught him stuff I had learned tried to get him set up in the system. But he was like a wild animal you was trying to cage. You had to give him his freedom and hope he would be ok. Along the way me an Bryan played in different scenarios with others while I was caught up in his madness the whole time. I felt like I was in the movie SPEED because that's how being around Bryan was with him. But I was like a puppy in love or something. We had lots of sexcapades putting ourselves at more risk. At the moment I didn't care I was hooked onto a merry go round.  So back to his story..I got him to slow down on the drugs an he was doing so good with his new mental health meds ad therapy...Then around the holidays Bryan went out an disappeared on me. I thought maybe he found a hot hook up? I looked for 3 days called ER's ...nothing until the 3rd day I was so worried because I knew Bryan lived on the edge an I figured he had been killed or overdosed or was in jail. But nope he was a John Doe at a local hospital was more or less on his deathbed an the doctors couldn't figured it out other than that poison control kept saying Gingko from those 5hr energy drinks. His kidneys, liver, lungs, and heart had pretty much stopped! 4Emory trauma teams working on him for like the first week an still didn't know if he would live? Finally he became strong enough to try dialysis on him an was told he might not have the strength to live through it but I told him in his ear to fight Bryan fight and that I loved him.  For 30 days or more before Bryan even knew who I was once telling nurse "I don't know who this Tom is but he she is nice" my heart was ready to burst from hearing this awesome innocent thought from a man who was still not got his memory back.  When finally he got his mind back that he was told his kidneys were not working and liver still wasn't 100%. We was told he would maybe have to live with dialysis for rest of his life. But after each treatment he barely could walk so I tried to make him do more to fight and eat right to try to jumpstart his kidneys again. Finally after 3 months his doctors told him his kidneys were working by the grace of God. So the story goes on that Bryan got his on place the first of every month until he smoked up his money by the 3-4 the of each month I would rescue him 3 months in a row hoping this would be the last time. But after being called from mental health ward I would be threatened with bloody violence etc.. an finally had to cut the strings that bound me to him. To this day I don't know if Bryan is alive? A few months ago I got a call from legal department of a hospital about Bryan but they wouldn't say if he was still alive or dead. I forgot to say when I got his family to come during his near death event before they was so worried about Bryan and went shopping telling the doctors to listen to me for what needs done. I wanted Bryan to know one human being in the world cared what happened to him and he had value in this human race. I miss my friend and all his crazy moments and wished he could have a normal settle home life. But see this is what happens to some of our homeless persons with HIV they disappear become lost an die with not even their family ever know what happened in these southern big cities an not enough funding to help them get back into society. I am lucky when it came to meeting Bryan. I learned gratitude and I didn't use drugs or drink all that time living through someone else's madness. I am one the lucky ones risking myself for fun I didn't pick up HEPC after many test they say I don't have it. Thank you, Lord!  But this could be someone out there playing unsafe an becoming HIV+ HEPC an many other things.  I didn't get him tamed but I tried to give him self value which I do believe he picked up from the experience together. I hope your alive and doing well Bryan someone loves you......I have been celibate 5 yrs now since Guy I named Bryan.

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Sugar daddy

He came in all flashy
He sat down in room with Papa
He pointed at me
I want her
cash was exchanged
I cried
Know one listened
He drove me to a Hotel
I was so scared
In the room...he took me
Took my innocence..
I wasn't alone he had more girls
Time flew by...
Daddy lent us strangers
the strangers raped us
I started to feel sick
was taken to the doctor
doctor asked if I used protection
he washed his hands
He said you have AIDS
Where did you catch it from?
Whats your daddy's name?
Sugar Daddy

by TG Green


Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Woman, Wife, Mother

Woman first was a Lady
She got married
He was first a man
then he became her Husband
Woman was a good wife
She got pregnant
She was a good mom.
Husband loved her
He had a secret
Woman got the flu
Went to doctor
They said she had AIDS
She cried
She became angry
Husband why did you give me Aids?
Because I have a secret
Woman died
Husband died
Kids are now orphans
They miss Woman, Wife, Mother
written by TG Green

Sunday, March 17, 2013

What is HIV-friendly?

First of all, thanks for asking. It is indeed an important question, one we don't ask often enough, if ever. It is also a question with multiple answers, I believe. I don't think I can give, here, all the answers, and I don't proclaim I know all of them, either, but here are a few, in my humble opinion.

First of all, I'd like to say that LGBT community and media are examples of what it means to be HIV friendly. Some may say that they have an obvious reason, because AIDS first touched the gay community, back in the beginning of the 1980s. But nowadays, HIV has touched everybody and every country, and we should all embrace being HIV friendly. Yet, sadly, HIV and/or AIDS are mentioned in the mainstream community (or media) only on December 1st (World AIDS Day) or to announce major developments in finding a cure. Nowadays, thanks to social media, the words HIV and AIDS are used more often, which is fantastic, because HIV/AIDS is still here, we still need to deal with it, all of us, not only the LGBT community or media, who's been on the front lines of talking about it from the very beginning.

That being said, HIV friendly can be:

* a media outlet that's not afraid to report on HIV/AIDS or mention the terms HIV or AIDS on a regular basis, providing AIDS prevention and education tools, for example, together with other important information on the subject, or reporting on HIV/AIDS medical or not medical related events
* to follow the above point, a publisher open to publishing and advertising HIV/AIDS books, literature, etc. that goes hand in hand with any bookstore, newsstand, etc that offers HIV/AIDS materials and displays them so that everybody can see and find them
* any kind of art form that uses HIV/AIDS as a source of inspiration (from visual arts to performing arts, videos, movies, music, etc); those of us who've been in the tranches for too long, we (I assume) are familiar with works like Angels in America, Philadelphia, And the Band Played On, etc... we need more of those, new HIV/AIDS related movies, plays, musicals, books, etc, and not just touching on the subject, because if you get too deep people won't read the book or go see the movie, but really show the reality (then and now) of living with the virus
* a community of any kind that's not afraid to talk openly about HIV/AIDS (no, not saying that it's a 'punishment from God' etc) but truly talk about it, also any community that accepts individuals living openly with HIV/AIDS and defends them against related stigma, for example (that community can be an ASO, a church community, or any other kind)
* someone, anybody, who's not afraid to make the words HIV and/or AIDS part of their daily vocabulary, not as 'bad words' or words that carry some sort of shame, but words we need to know and understand; the more we use these words, the more we learn about them and, hence, we learn to protect ourselves and prevent ourselves from getting infected, because not talking about AIDS doesn't help, quite the contrary
* I would like to see a TV program/channel/anything dedicated to the pandemic; usually, it's mentioned briefly (don't blink or you'll miss it) in the mainstream media; AIDS is not something like a boogie man we need to stay away from, rather we need to learn everything we can about it, through whatever means we can, to better understand it and stay away from getting infected, HIV/AIDS... knowledge can save lives

I can go on, but these are only a few of the things that come to mind. I agree that we should talk more about the pandemic, on a regular basis, without fear to mention it by name, rather with dedication to educate others about it.

Alina Oswald
 Alina Oswald
Journeys Through Darkness: A Biography of AIDS

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Got a question about HIV?

PhotoPlease ask me your questions about HIV/AIDS? I have lived with it for alittle over 30 yrs now. I answer your questions if I can. Iam just a regular joe . Leave a message please!        thanks. TG Green

People who influenced me in HIV history.

One of the major influencers in my HIV history was a young 19 yrs. old guy, he had the rare blood disease called CMV in 1980's. He had the spirit almost like an angel. Energy glowed from him & he always made me smile, because nothing would get him down. He taught me so much gratitude back in the early yrs. . He loved me to explain everything to him the colors and the weather what people were wearing etc.. Did I mention he was blind from CMV? Yes and that's what made me love him because he could see more with his ears than most saw with their eyes.. I miss him and those like him. When people showed their feelings more and were more nurturing. Try to be more nurturing to people you don't know you may need it yourself oneday..   

tg green

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Lets Wipe Out HIV!

Subject: President Obama: "Hiv/Aids Funds for South"
Yes in the southern USA HIV/AIDS services are not getting funded enough to cover the new wave of HIV concentration. I myself get turned down for services in GEORGIA even though I've survived 30 yrs.' with HIV. Lets balance the funding by giving more to help with the deep south areas. Its like HIV'S last hiding place. LETS.. WIPE IT OUT! By giving the tools we need to services provider to fight it. Thank you.
That's why I created a petition to The Mississippi State House, The Mississippi State Senate, Governor Phil Bryant, The United States House of Representatives, The United States Senate, and President Barack Obama, which says:
"Please sign petition to get more funding for #HIV in rural southern USA. Lets KNOCK OUT #HIV!."
Will you sign this petition? Click here:

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Snakes amongst us..

Some Advocates are like the serpent in the garden whispering things of deceit into others ears to sway them off the loving path. It shows we have evil working amidst the good HIV WARRIORS, weakening the foundations. How do we not know if they aren't paid by big PHARM to break our strength? Are there snakes in Alabama an other Southern States slowing services to rural areas? Ask yourself what is real reason in Alabama only certain areas get funded but certain HIV CEO's make sure they get Washington Board positions? Are we more political growth or are we more for the people. Maybe its time for new blood in these areas if they haven't got it fixed yet?

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Daddy is a bi sexual barebacker

Daddy who are you?
Son I am a bi sexual man..
Dad what does bi sexual mean?
It means I like to have sex with men & women.
Because its how I  feel inside.
Did you love my Momma?
Yes...I did!
What happened to momma?
She died...
How did she die?
She died of AIDS!
How did she get AIDS?
I gave Hiv to her..
Why would you do that?
Because I am a Bi Sexual BAREBACKER!
This happens too much!
If your playing with him be she can stay negative.. 

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Hiv is temporary!

Temporary = Lasting for only a limited period of time; not permanent.
This is the feeling I get in my gut.
Its why I don't mind HIV as much as I should.
I hear you talk bad about people with HIV.
Don't you know it hurts those people?
Why not nurture a person living with HIV?
Ask me how I am today.
Would you be ok with HIV?
It won't be here long!
Because it is Temporary!

written by TG GREEN

Sometimes to get through a very overwhelming
life issue your facing. You have to think is only


I am lovable just as I am, even with HIV.

Monday, March 4, 2013


The patient with advanced HIV disease complains of one or more of the following:
  • Agitation
  • Anorexia
  • Chronic pain
  • Constipation
  • Cough
  • Decubitus ulcers or pressure sores
  • Delirium
  • Dementia
  • Depression
  • Diarrhea
  • Dry mouth
  • Dry skin
  • Dyspnea
  • Fatigue
  • Fever
  • Hiccups
  • Increased secretions ("death rattle")
  • Nausea
  • Pruritus
  • Sleep disturbance
  • Sweats
  • Vomiting
  • Weakness
  • Weight loss

       I've had some of these off and on through out my over 30 yrs. HIV.  Plus you have to know getting older can carry aches and pains that can feel severe. Always write down on a pad your pain and what level it is so you don't forget it at your doctors visits. Doctors are human and you have to work out a balance with them. Never let a doctor disrespect you ! Always fight to keep your dignity. Never give up!

Friday, March 1, 2013


How to Survive a Plague
Nominated for an Academy Award® for Best Documentary and featured on over 15 top-ten lists, HOW TO SURVIVE A PLAGUE is the story of the brave young men and women who successfully reversed the tide of an epidemic, demanded the attention of a fearful nation, and stopped AIDS from becoming a death sentence. This improbable group of activists bucked oppression and infiltrated government agencies and the pharmaceutical industry, helping to identify promising new medication and treatments and move them through trials and into drugstores in record time. In the process, they saved their own lives and ended the darkest days of a veritable plague, while virtually emptying AIDS wards in American hospitals. Theirs is a classic tale of activism that has since inspired movements for change in everything from breast cancer research to Occupy Wall Street.